2015: The End
The year of 2015 has felt like a truck swerving on the slippery surface of a curved mountain road tipping closer to the edge. I must say it’s not bad as it seems (or described) because it’s quite an experience, the thrill, the adrenaline that rushes through your blood as you do your best to take control of the steering wheel when your wheels choose not to cooperate and any type of tyre grip is inexistent. When the mass of your vehicle seems more than your current situation, you have no choice but to manage the wheel, repel from slipping, forget about the grip and even after that you are not guaranteed to stay on track, but what it does mean is that you have saved some time. You have a little more time to try and stay afloat, you have not completely fallen off.
Now that is something to be grateful and to move forward from. I won’t say that my year began on an easy note, just as complicated as it is now, just a different complication, one after the other. Difficulties never cease to follow, just like the African uncles in Woolwich. You cannot avoid them either, I will repeat that now; you cannot avoid the difficulties life has in store for you, they do and will always exist.
As you grow, you learn to accept that you only really have control over one thing in this life and that is your perspective. Believe me when I say that is all. Only a few people really know what has gone on / goes on in my life and I’d like to keep it that way mainly because it’s not about ‘what’, but ‘how’. How did I get myself out of that particular predicament, how am I going to move forward? How will I make sure this doesn’t affect anything else?
I must mention that I did not just acquire the state of self-realization as well as growth in this year alone but it’s a process. I don’t mean to shine my own patents (shoes), but people who actually know me would probably tell you that I’m pretty wise, mature (beyond my own years) and focused. Despite the level of intellect, maturity, focus and faith one has its easy to not ‘fall off’ but to lose control, do not mistake that for losing yourself, because if you take time in finding yourself, yourself shall forever remain its losing control of yourself, just the steering wheel, it still remains, you’ve just lost your grip for whatever reason.
But you must persist in gaining that control back, remastering yourself. Recalculating the journey process into doing so and you only achieve that when you adjust your perspective.
Your outlook on life, attitude, angle of approach, stance etc. is so key in creating the bets out of the worst situation. I must say that I am glad to see the end of this year, but just as much as I am grateful for the trials that have pushed me to develop, grow as a person. You never stop advancing until death comes. Always strive to do and be better. Never be complacent, the focus you have today can depart from you tomorrow.
Nurture your mind, body and soul.
With Love,
Nicole Maworera
